Have You Left Your First Love?
Do you remember when you were—as John Flavel put it— “restless and impatient… in His absence”? You could bear anything but that. Sickness you could bear. Pain and temporal losses you could endure. But His absence was unbearable . You could not stand to go on without the sense of His dear smile. You longed to walk and live and breathe in the light of His countenance (Psalm 4:6–7; Psalm 89:15). Do you remember when “Divine withdrawments were to you as the hell of hell (Flavel)” ? Those seasons when God seemed to hide His face from you—when He was distant, and there was not that familiar communion and fellowship in the prayer closet—were to you as hell. You wept and you groaned and you cried for His return. You stirred yourself to take hold of God (Isaiah 64:7), and you wrestled with Him as you told Him you would not let Him go (Genesis 32:26). Do you remember when the world was a burden to you? Do you remember a time when, if it were not for your sense of duty, you would have gladly...